One Republic - Counting Stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

But baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Yeah, we'll be counting stars

I see this life

Like a swinging vine

Swing my heart across the line

In my face is flashing signs

Seek it out and ye shall find

Old, but I'm not that old

Young, but I'm not that bold

And I don't think the world is sold

I'm just doing what we're told

I feel something so right

Doing the wrong thing

I feel something so wrong

Doing the right thing

I could lie, could lie, could lie

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be, we'll be counting stars

I feel the love

And I feel it burn

Down this river every turn

Hope is a four letter word

Make that money

Watch it burn

Old, but I'm not that old

Young, but I'm not that bold

And I don't think the world is sold

I'm just doing what we're told

And I feel something so wrong

Doing the right thing

I could lie, could lie, could lie

Everything that downs me makes me wanna fly

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be, we'll be counting stars

Take that money

Watch it burn

Sink in the river

The lessons I learned

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be, we'll be counting stars

Take that money

Watch it burn

Sink in the river

The lessons I learned

O coração.

O coração da gente gosta de atenção. De cuidados cotidianos. De mimos repentinos. De ser alimentado com iguarias finas, como a beleza, o riso, o afeto. Gosta quando espalhamos os seus brinquedos no chão e sentamos com ele para brincar. E há momentos em que tudo o que ele precisa é que preparemos banhos de imersão na quietude, para lavarmos, uma a uma, as partes que lhe doem. É que o levemos para revisitar, na memória, instantes ensolarados de amor capazes de ajudá-lo a mudar a frequência do sentimento.

Há momentos em que tudo o que precisa é que reservemos algum tempo a sós com ele para desapertá-lo com toda delicadeza possível.

(Ana Jácomo)

...Keep Smiling!

Life is full of gifts, if we only stop and notice. If we choose to to be thankful and treasure all life's gifts, then we will find our lives are filled with joy and happiness - the hurts and disappointments won't weigh us down as much.

When you learn to love yourself, you will be much happier and life outlook will be more positive.

Enjoy the little things, for one day you will realize they were the big things.

Stop worrying what you have to lose and start focusing on what you have to gain.

...And Just Keep smiling!

Seus caminhos são misteriosos.

"Deus costuma usar a solidão

Para nos ensinar sobre a convivência.

Às vezes, usa a raiva para que possamos

Compreender o infinito valor da paz.

Outras vezes usa o tédio, quando quer

nos mostrar a importância da aventura e do abandono.

Deus costuma usar o silêncio para nos ensinar

sobre a responsabilidade do que dizemos.

Às vezes usa o cansaço, para que possamos

Compreender o valor do despertar.

Outras vezes usa a doença, quando quer

Nos mostrar a importância da saúde.

Deus costuma usar o fogo,

para nos ensinar a andar sobre a água.

Às vezes, usa a terra, para que possamos

Compreender o valor do ar.

Outras vezes usa a morte, quando quer

Nos mostrar a importância da vida."

(Paulo Coelho)

Trust & Peace.

I am not going to lie, I am hurt. My heart has been broken. But I am doing fine. How can this be?! Why am I not bawling my eyes out and thinking my life is over?
This is all so interesting and has been such a growing experience.

During this break-up, I do feel sad once in a while, but it's a different kind of sadness. I feel sad because I felt mistreated and deceived. I feel sad because I do miss the times I was happy with him. But I don't feel sad about the break-up.
For some reason, I feel in peace. I feel like God has been reassuring me that this is for the best. But this is not like those times when you know it's for the best, but you still feel like crap. I actually FEEL better. Even though I might feel alone (physically, I mean) I KNOW and FEEL that I am not alone spiritually. 
I have never felt this kind of love from God before. It is so amazing and overwhelming - to a point I started crying out of joy and gratefulness over His presence. I've never felt so loved, yet I felt so mistreated by the ones I love. For the first time in my life, I understand, I feel, and I accept the paths God wants me to take. I feel an indescribable trust that I will be okay. I am okay. I feel peace and joy in my heart again. Even my hormone mood swings and cramps have gone WAY down! (Crazy...)

I can't begin to explain how much I have grown spiritually and mentally. I've learned a lot about myself with all of this. I know this was in God's plan; I was supposed to mess it up, to feel distant from God, and to feel lost, and have people disappoint me... Because that way I can finally understand that only ONE will make me feel complete and will satisfy a thirst that no worldly matter can. Because God is enough!

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The Lord is compassionate and merciful, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.

~ Psalm 103:8, NLT

Come back to the place of safety, all you prisoners who still have hope! I promise this very day that I will repay two blessings for each of your troubles.

~ Zechariah 9:12, NLT

God's voice is glorious in the thunder. We can't even imagine the greatness of His power.

~ Job 37:5, NLT

Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.

~ John 14:1, NLT

Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

~ Isaiah 41:10, NLT

All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's paths to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all.

~ Isaiah 53:6, NLT

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Thank You God for always being here with me, for walking with me through every step of my life... I know you've never left me.
I am the lost sheep... But I have returned to my Shepherd.

Thank You Again Father,

Your Child.

Tim Timmons - Starts With Me

What could I do to leave a legacy?
How can I speak with authority
When I can't see you, I can't see you
How can I know the dreams you have for me?
How do I believe beyond what I have seen?
When I can't hear you, I can't feel you now 
Oh, no, no, no

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees 
When I am weak you're strong
You meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees 
Oh, it starts with me

Why do I try to work outside of you?
Knocking down doors I should be going through
But I'm so tired, I'm so tired
You take my burdens off of my shoulders
You break the lies that hold me back
So I'm not sure enough

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees 
When I am weak your strong 
You meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees 
Yeah, it starts with me

I really wanna change the world
I really wanna sing your song
But I know revival's got to start with me
I really wanna change the world
I really wanna sing your song
But I know revival's got to start with me

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees 
When I am weak you're strong you meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees 

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees 
When I am weak your strong you meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees 
It starts with me

Love.

In my twenty years of life, I've learned what love is able to bear and sacrifice, I've learned what love is, and I've learned what love isn't. Three big lessons that I will always carry in my heart.
Now I have to learn to be love.

"Remember, my child, anyone can love you when the sun is shining. In the storms is where you learn who truly cares for you." 

"Even after all this time, the sun never says to the Earth "you owe me". Look what happens with a love like that... it lights the whole sky."


God, please take away any resentment towards those who have hurt me. I want to be love and share love;  no more holding onto things that will not shine Your light.

Never regret 

Never forget 

The gift from above 

Unconditional love

Dead-end.

We've all been down dead-end roads... But what if those roads were acutually taking you somewhere you needed to go?

Third Day - I need a miracle

Well, late one night, she started to cry and thought, "He ain't coming home"

She was tired of the lies, tired of the fight, but she didn't want to see him go

She fell on her knees and said, "I haven't prayed since I was young

But Lord above, I need a miracle"

Well no matter who you are and no matter what you've done

There will come a time when you can't make it on your own

And in your hour of desperation

Know you're not the only one

Prayin', "lord above, I need a miracle

I need a miracle"

I don't understand.

I don't understand how you can smile all day and cry yourself to sleep at night. [or, in my case, feel my heart bleeding, but not being able to shed one single tear]. How pictures can never change, but the people in them do. How forever turns into a few short months. How you let go of something you once said you couldn't live without. How you know something is best for you, but it still hurts the same. How people who once wanted to spend every second with you, they now try to avoid you at all cost. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken [along with hearts]. How people can erase you from their lives just because it's easier than working things out. 

The truth is... in reality, boys don't come running back to you in the middle of the night sneaking through the window. They just leave and never say a word to you again. 

Little girl, get up.

He took her by the hand and said to her, "Talitha koum!"

(which means "Little girl, I say to you, get up!")  Mark 5:41

Bajo la luna.

Mi querida,
Sabia decisión... Mi niña, sin duda que hubo un perdedor
Y tuvo que haber sido él.
Perdió una sonrisa que brilla cómo el sol.
Perdió una compañera con iniciativa, con proyección y con mucha experiencia y conocimiento.
As veces es dificil relacionar una persona llena de vida y ansias por vivir... con alguien vacio!
El brillo de tu mirada bajo la luna me dijo que estabas llena de muchas cosas... lo recuerdo perfectamente.

Just another breakup

There goes another one...

Just another heartbreak

Just another heartache
Another bad lie, another goodbye looking for another
Heart to break

I felt it coming

The beginning of our end

It's replaying on my mind

And I guess I just can't comprehend

It's just another break up

It's for the better

That's all it matters

All the expectations and hope
They're all gone

That's what hurts the most

I'm not sad
I'm just done

Tired of doing this on my own

Tired of having to move on

Just another broken heart

Just another fresh start

Brandon Heath - Love Does.

This one goes out to the world changer
Shining your light in the face of danger
Oh, tell us what you know
You’re a saint, you’re a son, you’re a promise keeper
Bottom of the well, still digging down deeper
Oh, how far you gonna go
Chasing down hope
Moving on dreams
Taking that path
Maybe it’ll lead you home
Maybe it won’t

Nobody knows why your heart is broken
Nobody cries while your prayers are going up
But Love does
Nobody walks on the road you’re paving
Nobody sees all the souls you’re saving
Oh, but Love does
Love does
Love does
This is for the one on the front line fighting
Ringing that bell over everybody
Oh, tell us what you know
Knocking down doors in the midnight alley
Looking for a life in a desert valley
Oh, how far you gonna go

Chasing down hope
Moving on dreams
Taking that path
Maybe it’ll lead you home
Maybe it don’t

You are a renegade
You’re an outlaw of Love’s crusade
And they don’t know who you are
They don’t know
They don’t know
But Love does
I’m telling you, Love does

Somebody knows
Somebody cries
Somebody feels
Love does
Somebody walks
Somebody sees
Somebody knows
Love does

Courage.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9

I admit to you, I haven't been very courageous. Doubt and fear has me feeling like I am trapped in quicksand. I can't breathe, I am shaking.

I remember that Courage isn't just a nice idea, it's a command.

I can't find anywhere in the bible where it commands us to be weak and safe. But, over and over again we are reminded to be strong and courageous.

I've heard it said that, "Courage isn't the absence of fear, it's having fear and moving forward anyway."

So, I can face that thing that is gripping me in fear too. 

FEAR NOT. MOVE FORWARD.

Never lose hope...

Never lose hope

when the Beloved

sends you away.

If you’re abandoned

if you’re left hopeless

tomorrow for sure

you’ll be called again.

If the door is shut

right in your face

keep waiting with patience

don’t leave right away.

Seeing your patience

your love will soon

summon you with grace

raise you like a champion.

Mercy Me - Beautiful

The days will come when you don't have the strength

When all you hear is you're not worth anything

Wondering if you ever could be loved

And if they truly saw your heart they'd see too much

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You are made so much more than all of this

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His

You're beautiful

And praying that you have the heart to find

Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight

For all the lies you've held inside so long

And they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You are made so much more than all of this

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His

You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath

Long before the world began

Of all the wonders He possessed

There was one more precious

Of all the earth and skies above

You're the one He madly loves

Enough to death

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

In His eyes

You're beautiful

You were meant for so much more than all of this

You're beautiful

You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You're meant for so much more than all of this

You're beautiful

You're beautiful

You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His

Questions, oh so many...

So many questions are in my mind... I feel like a thunder storm has arrived in my head and it's pouring down rain, thunder, lightning, hail... everything at once.
I, then, decided to pour all this power into a place that I can break it down the storm into light rain, so maybe I can understand myself and hopefully you [one day] better.

1. How did this all happen? I thought we were in a good place.
2. Why don't you communicate better? You're often so quiet and I find myself trying to understand you through gestures and actions, instead of you just being a little bit more communicative.
3. If this is happening, are you truly willing to work it out? Or are you just trying to spare me from greater suffering?
4. Is this a phase, something you think we just need to work it through it? Or you think this is how you want to act for a longer time?
5. I am trying to be so supportive, to be there for you, is this mutual? Are you concerned about me? Or just you and your life?
6. Are you doing this to avoid me or actually because we need some time apart?
7. Are you hurt by all of this? Or are you happier that we are "apart"?
8. Do you think we both need God in our relationship? Do you feel like we have been neglecting Him a little?
9. Do you feel away from God?
10. Do you think God can heal and restore our relationship? Or do you feel like it's all "on us"?
11. Do you think you're just overwhelmed? Do you think there's actually something we need to work on that bothers you? Are you willing to work the differences?
12. Am I being too pushy? Or this doesn't have anything to do with me?
13. Why did you think for a moment it would be better to let go of who you love? What made you come to this decision so quickly and easily?
14. Do you really want to be in a relationship or you just like the company of someone?
15. I am feeling completely unloved, unwanted, undesired, and hurt. Why do you think that I am feeling this way? Are you willing to change that? Or are you just looking after your own interests?
16. Finally... if you would hate answering these questions and really wished we didn't need this conversation, please leave. Now.

O Amor.

"E lá no fundo da alma esse sentimento nos traz risos ou prantos bem nítidos a qualquer aprendiz. O amor mais sublime não faz promessas vãs ou desumanas, no infinito descaso. O amor é incondicional quando é o ápice dos sentimentos, quando vemos que a vida transforma, sem vício ou aplauso. E tudo o que sentimos pode ser bem mais profundo, quando o amor sublime nos prova a verdade, de graça, além de todo o padrão que nos ronda no mundo, além da maior escuridão, que o verdadeiro amor ultrapassa."

Nada pela metade.

"Recomeça... se puderes, sem angústia e sem pressa e os passos que deres, nesse caminho duro do futuro, dá-os em liberdade, enquanto não alcances não descanses, de nenhum fruto queiras só metade." ~ Miguel Torga

Recomeçar

Não importa onde você parou,
em que momento da vida você cansou,
o que importa é que sempre é possível
e necessário "Recomeçar". 
Recomeçar é dar uma nova 
chance a si mesmo.
É renovar as esperanças na vida
e o mais importante:
acreditar em você de novo.

Sofreu muito nesse período?
Foi aprendizado.

Chorou muito?
Foi limpeza da alma.

Ficou com raiva das pessoas?
Foi para perdoá-las um dia.

Sentiu-se só por diversas vezes?
É por que fechaste a porta até para os outros.

Acreditou que tudo estava perdido?
Era o início da tua melhora.

Pois é!
Agora é hora de iniciar,
de pensar na luz,
de encontrar prazer nas coisas simples de novo.

Que tal um novo emprego?
Uma nova profissão?
Um corte de cabelo arrojado, diferente?
Um novo curso,
ou aquele velho desejo de apender a pintar,
desenhar,
dominar o computador,
ou qualquer outra coisa?

Olha quanto desafio.
Quanta coisa nova nesse mundão
de meu Deus te esperando.

Tá se sentindo sozinho?
Besteira!
Tem tanta gente que você afastou
com o seu "período de isolamento",
tem tanta gente esperando apenas um
sorriso teu para "chegar" perto de você.

Quando nos trancamos na tristeza nem
nós mesmos nos suportamos.
Ficamos horríveis.
O mau humor vai comendo nosso fígado,
até a boca ficar amarga.

Recomeçar!
Hoje é um bom dia para começar
novos desafios.

Onde você quer chegar?
Ir alto.
Sonhe alto,
queira o melhor do melhor,
queira coisas boas para a vida.
pensamentos assim trazem para nós
aquilo que desejamos.

Se pensarmos pequeno,
coisas pequenas teremos.

Já se desejarmos fortemente o melhor
e principalmente lutarmos pelo melhor,
o melhor vai se instalar na nossa vida.

E é hoje o dia da Faxina Mental.

Joga fora tudo que te prende ao passado,
ao mundinho de coisas tristes,
fotos,
peças de roupa,
papel de bala,
ingressos de cinema,
bilhetes de viagens,
e toda aquela tranqueira que guardamos
quando nos julgamos apaixonados.
Jogue tudo fora.
Mas, principalmente,
esvazie seu coração.
Fique pronto para a vida,
para um novo amor.

Lembre-se somos apaixonáveis,
somos sempre capazes de amar
muitas e muitas vezes.
Afinal de contas,
nós somos o "Amor"

Pessoas.

God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you the person you were meant to be.

Peço a Deus que me mostre com clareza quem são essas pessoas e seus propósitos na minha vida. Devargazinho, venho aprendendo o sentido da vida, o por quê de tudo... É difícil, parece que levo um tapa na cara todo dia da vida, de Deus. Mas aos poucos, vejo quem é importante, quem é passageiro e quem é pra sempre; quem deixará cicatrizes e quem deixará flores.
Aos poucos... entendendo...
Entendendo que o que nasceu pra ser seu, nada toma. Nem o tempo, nem as pessoas.
Então pra quê se preocupar? Let it go!
Que daqui pra frente venha o melhor. Que as mudanças sejam conseqüências do que foi bom. Que os demais continuem sendo os demais. Que os amigos fiquem, permaneçam, envelheçam. Que as lembranças continuem como retrato, porém, intacto na cabeça. Que flores, estrelas e arco-íris não percam a beleza. Que um sorriso bem dado seja entendido. Que o mundo gire numa rotatória perfeita, sem cambalear ninguém.

Whatever makes you happy...

"Never be ashamed of what you feel. You have the right to feel any emotion you want, and to do what makes you HAPPY."

Parece errado estar querendo a felicidade, que alguém se importe comigo, que eu me sinta amada, que isso seja um relacionamento mútuo de carinho e cumplicidade...

Tenho aprendido com o tempo que a felicidade vibra na frequência das coisas mais simples. Que o que amacia a vida, acende o riso, convida a alma pra brincar, são essas imensas coisas pequeninas bordadas com fios de luz no tecido áspero do cotidiano.

Só peço o simples, um abraço, um beijo, uma palavra de carinho... Mais amor, por favor.

Away.

All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's paths to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all.

~ Isaiah 53:6, NLT

It is so hard when one swerves away and is aware of it. How can one be found again? 
It hurts to know the truth, to feel so far away.


Psalm 46:10 ~ Be still and know that I am God.

É tudo aprendizado.

Tudo nessa vida é puro e simples aprendizado. Nem sempre tão puro ou muito menos simples. Mas é nessa base,o jeito que escolhi viver. Claro que tô sempre pedindo tolerância ao Pai pra suportar certos desafios, seres humanos (desumanos). Vou indo... Vivendo! Dando a cara pra bater diariamente. Sem enrolação. Só com a boa, verdadeira e antiga perspectiva de que, aqui se faz, aqui se paga, mermão!

Nem sempre ganhando, nem sempre perdendo... vivendo e aprendendo a jogar.

Barreiras.

A vida é cheia de surpresas e de repente uma dessas pode tornar tua vida totalmente diferente e cheia de mágica.
É incrível como um certo "bom dia, amor" é capaz de proporcional o melhor dia de sol, a melhor caminhada ao ar livre, o melhor sorriso, o melhor suspiro. É tão intensa a forma como alguém pode nos cativar e nos marcar, tão emocionante aquele cuidado e ciúme, aquele querer "ter", aquele senso de propriedade mútua.
E impressionante me parece a forma como as coisas vão sendo lapidadas, como fazemos planos e construímos fatos e laços, como podemos confiar tanto, querer tanto, cuidar tanto, amar tanto. 
Acreditar, querer, confiar, respeitar, construir, amar, viver. 
Ao lado de quem amamos esses verbos se tornam ordens do destino para a própria vida.
O amor derruba barreiras (quantas forem necessárias).

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Mas as vezes quando não feito de forma certa ou quando não mútuo,
Destrói barreiras, deixa lágrimas, machuca o coração e deixa cicatrizes.