Living La Vida

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Into the Wild

“I'd like to repeat the advice that I gave you before, in that I think you really should make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.

If you want to get more out of life, Ron, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty. And so, Ron, in short, get out of Salton City and hit the Road. I guarantee you will be very glad you did. But I fear that you will ignore my advice. You think that I am stubborn, but you are even more stubborn than me. You had a wonderful chance on your drive back to see one of the greatest sights on earth, the Grand Canyon, something every American should see at least once in his life. But for some reason incomprehensible to me you wanted nothing but to bolt for home as quickly as possible, right back to the same situation which you see day after day after day. I fear you will follow this same inclination in the future and thus fail to discover all the wonderful things that God has placed around us to discover.

Don't settle down and sit in one place. Move around, be nomadic, make each day a new horizon. You are still going to live a long time, Ron, and it would be a shame if you did not take the opportunity to revolutionize your life and move into an entirely new realm of experience.

You are wrong if you think Joy emanates only or principally from human relationships. God has placed it all around us. It is in everything and anything we might experience. We just have to have the courage to turn against our habitual lifestyle and engage in unconventional living.

My point is that you do not need me or anyone else around to bring this new kind of light in your life. It is simply waiting out there for you to grasp it, and all you have to do is reach for it. The only person you are fighting is yourself and your stubbornness to engage in new circumstances.”

― Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

Stay or Leave?

As College applications are due, this decision is becoming more and more real to me. It's killing me inside. I want to stay. I don't feel like I am going to have enough guts to leave. What do I do? My friend Morgan gave me the ideia to write down my thoughts in a pros vs. cons setting and keep adding things as I go through with my journey. So here it is. I pray that I can find peace in my decision, and that God help me distinguish what is right for me and what path is in His mind. As of 10/22/13, as much as I say to people I want to go to San Diego, I don't see myself leaving. At all. I am too scared. But it's not just fear. It's more about the "why try to fix something that isn't broken?"... Why would I want to leave and start something new all over again if I am so happy here? Only God and I know how hard it has been to be away from my family... and then I am going to have to start it all over again. Without anyone. ANYONE. That's painful. I don't think I am that strong.

If I stay...

Pros:

1. Stay with him;
2. Get a place for myself;
3. Cheaper;
4. Everything I like is here!
5. Support system already established;

Cons:

1. Don't get to experience San Diego's life style and beach life that I so much love!
2. Maybe always think "what if"...
3. Take the risk to stay and not work out;

If I Leave...

Pros:

1. Best International Business Program!
2. Finally be at the beach again;
3. Great weather, beautiful place;
4. Experience new things, meet new people;
5. Get out of my comfort zone, grow personally and expand my horizons;

Cons:

1. More expensive;
2. Don't know anyone, no support system;
3. Chance of not liking there;
4. Far from him, possibility of wearing out relationship
5. Scared of something new all over again... not sure if I want to do that as nice as it sounds in theory.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Happiness.

Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. No person will make you happy unless you decide to be happy. Your happiness will not come to you. It can only come from you.
Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, whatever state I may be in, therein to be content.

Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, whatever state I may be in, therein to be content.
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Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. No person will make you happy unless you decide to be happy. Your happiness will not come to you. It can only come from you.

See more at: http://www.idlehearts.com/?p=36071"Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. No person will make you happy unless you decide to be happy. Your happiness will not come to you. It can only come from you."

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Zedd - Clarity

High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life

Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time

Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends

A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need

Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends

It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense

Don't speak as I try to leave 'cause we both know what we'll choose

If you pull then I'll push too deep and I'll fall right back to you

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need

Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Why are you my clarity?

Why are you my remedy?

Why are you my clarity?

Why are you my remedy?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

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Am I the only one still thinking about it?

Thursday, September 26, 2013

A grain of sand

Rolling down the mounds of sand clusters of our life
breaking me down the grain of sand that is
hidden essence of our life
the lifelong journey from one grain to unite and become as one pile of sand
is the way we work
and the way we live
Plain emotions that have no feeling
run through my head
simplistic in your head
but when you try to leave them and let others see
you have to literally bear your fingers and untie the knots of the sticky words
as they roll of your tongue you see hesitation of your lips as you try to pull them back
and once again
you are rolling down the sand mounds
but you are only a grain of sand
trying to explain
and translate your life
to the pound of sand

The duplicity of love.

Love can be scary sometimes. It can hurt. Such pain can bring you to the deepest bottom, it can bring you to waters so deep you will drawn even before you ever reach the bottom.

But love can bring you to the highest mountains, you can fly so high you won’t even be able to see the ground.

Encountering both situations have gotten me rather confused than sad or hurt. I have experienced the ecstasy of love, as well as the black-and-white side of love, the one that reaps you apart without hesitating and deteriorates every hope in you.

One of the things that I wonder the most about this devious subject is: How does love – something so beautiful – can change into something so cruel, something that brings tears to your eyes, and darkness to your soul? How do people go from being completely in love, so enticed by the moment, to giving up on everything? It is almost like they have been brain washed. Gambling with love is a tricky business, and we always end up paying with our hearts.

The duplicity of love renders me spechless more often that I would like to admit. Truly, love is a double-edged sword - it can hurt you or inspire you.

When does one give up? Sometimes it's better to leave broken hearts broken than hurting yourself fixing it back together. How do we know the fine line between leaving and staying? How do we know when to say enough, when to say "I have given my all"? Or when do we say "this is worth it - you are worth the pain"?

I guess the answer for this question might be somewhat ironic... the answer is a personal observation and analysis of your own being and your own feelings. How profound, sincere, and pure is your love? Are you truly in love? Is your love selfless? To a point that you can give up on yourself for the sake of your lover?

I guess is just like how the Beatles once said...

"From this moment on I know

Exactly where my life will go
Seems that all I really was doing
Was waiting for love

Don't need to be afraid
No need to be afraid
It's real love, it's real
Yes it's real love, it's real

Thought I'd been in love before
But in my heart, I wanted more
Seems like all I really was doing
Was waiting for you"

That's when you know.
We experience real love whenever we manage to love without expectations, calculations, negotiations, when we close our mouths but somehow manage to communicate in a hundred silent ways. As we live deeper in the heart, the mirror gets clearer and cleaner. And so does our lives.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Ellie Goulding - The Writer

You wait for a silence

I wait for a word

Lying next to your frame

Girl unobserved

You change your position

And you're changing me

Casting these shadows

Where they shouldn't be

We're interrupted

By the heat of the sun

Trying to prevent

What's already begun

Oh, you're just a body

I can smell your skin

And when we feel it

You're wearing thin

Oh, but I've got a plan

And why don't you be the artist?

And make me out of clay?

Why don't you be the writer?

And decide the words I say?

'Cause I'd rather pretend

I'll still be there at the end

Only it's too hard to ask

Won't you try to help me?

Sat on your sofa

It's all broken springs

This isn't the place for

Those violin strings

Oh, I try out a smile

And I aim it at you

Oh, you must have missed it

You always do

Oh, but I've got a plan

And why don't you be the artist?

And make me out of clay?

Oh, why don't you be the writer?

And decide the words I say?

‘Cause I'd rather pretend

I'll still be there at the end

Only it’s too hard to ask

Won't you try to help me?

You wait

I wait

Casting shadows

Interrupted

You wait

I wait

Casting shadows

Interrupted

You wait

I wait

Casting shadows

Interrupted

You wait

I wait

Casting shadows

Why don't you be the artist?

And make me out of clay?

Why don't you be the writer?

And decide the words I say?

'Cause I'd rather pretend

I'll still be there at the end

Only it’s too hard to ask

Won't you try to help me?

Why don’t you be the artist?

And make me out of clay?

Why don’t you be the writer?

And decide the words to say?

‘Cause I’d rather pretend

I’ll still be there at the end

Only it’s too hard to ask

Won't you try to help me?

Friday, September 20, 2013

What is important...

At times our lives are set to change

Through no fault of our own,

A change you know will break your heart

And maybe others too

But what is more important?

To live a life in fear

Or change and live the life you should

With someone you hold dear?

Everyone needs freedom

To live the life they should

They need to find their inner selves

And make themselves feel good

If a person can’t see what they can have

Right before their eyes

When reality hits and everything is once again gone,

You will know that I was truly the only one

Full of emptiness.

You know a life of loneliness and one filled with pain

Living a life with nothing to gain

Surrounded by darkness

Overwhelmed with shame

A life without peace

With no one to blame

I don't wanna live a life

Full of emptiness

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Snow Patrol - Chasing Stars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Love Is...

There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.

I've learned that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

Love isn't always perfect. It isn't a fairy-tale or a storybook and it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, every second of it was worth it because you did it together.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Waiting

I will wait

But I never said I won't be hurting

I will wait

I know it will be worth it

In the late hours,

I perform a ritual...

Sit in bed, put my glasses on, open my book, read a paragraph... start to daze

How much can I wait?

It's rather frustrating

To keep my emotions in

To hide behind my feelings

And keep the truth locked away

When everything seems to be exploding, bursting out

Don't want to let the future go by

While I am just waiting... quietly

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Passenger - Let Her Go

Well you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you’re missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass

Hoping one day you'll make a dream last

But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes

Maybe one day you'll understand why

Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark

Same old empty feeling in your heart

'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep

But never to touch and never to keep

'Cause you loved her too much

And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)

Will you let her go?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

One Republic - Counting Stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

But baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Yeah, we'll be counting stars

I see this life

Like a swinging vine

Swing my heart across the line

In my face is flashing signs

Seek it out and ye shall find

Old, but I'm not that old

Young, but I'm not that bold

And I don't think the world is sold

I'm just doing what we're told

I feel something so right

Doing the wrong thing

I feel something so wrong

Doing the right thing

I could lie, could lie, could lie

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be, we'll be counting stars

I feel the love

And I feel it burn

Down this river every turn

Hope is a four letter word

Make that money

Watch it burn

Old, but I'm not that old

Young, but I'm not that bold

And I don't think the world is sold

I'm just doing what we're told

And I feel something so wrong

Doing the right thing

I could lie, could lie, could lie

Everything that downs me makes me wanna fly

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be, we'll be counting stars

Take that money

Watch it burn

Sink in the river

The lessons I learned

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be counting stars

Lately I been, I been losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be

Baby I been, I been prayin' hard

Said no more counting dollars

We'll be, we'll be counting stars

Take that money

Watch it burn

Sink in the river

The lessons I learned

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

O coração.

O coração da gente gosta de atenção. De cuidados cotidianos. De mimos repentinos. De ser alimentado com iguarias finas, como a beleza, o riso, o afeto. Gosta quando espalhamos os seus brinquedos no chão e sentamos com ele para brincar. E há momentos em que tudo o que ele precisa é que preparemos banhos de imersão na quietude, para lavarmos, uma a uma, as partes que lhe doem. É que o levemos para revisitar, na memória, instantes ensolarados de amor capazes de ajudá-lo a mudar a frequência do sentimento.

Há momentos em que tudo o que precisa é que reservemos algum tempo a sós com ele para desapertá-lo com toda delicadeza possível.

(Ana Jácomo)

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

...Keep Smiling!

Life is full of gifts, if we only stop and notice. If we choose to to be thankful and treasure all life's gifts, then we will find our lives are filled with joy and happiness - the hurts and disappointments won't weigh us down as much.

When you learn to love yourself, you will be much happier and life outlook will be more positive.

Enjoy the little things, for one day you will realize they were the big things.

Stop worrying what you have to lose and start focusing on what you have to gain.

...And Just Keep smiling!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Seus caminhos são misteriosos.

"Deus costuma usar a solidão

Para nos ensinar sobre a convivência.

Às vezes, usa a raiva para que possamos

Compreender o infinito valor da paz.

Outras vezes usa o tédio, quando quer

nos mostrar a importância da aventura e do abandono.

Deus costuma usar o silêncio para nos ensinar

sobre a responsabilidade do que dizemos.

Às vezes usa o cansaço, para que possamos

Compreender o valor do despertar.

Outras vezes usa a doença, quando quer

Nos mostrar a importância da saúde.

Deus costuma usar o fogo,

para nos ensinar a andar sobre a água.

Às vezes, usa a terra, para que possamos

Compreender o valor do ar.

Outras vezes usa a morte, quando quer

Nos mostrar a importância da vida."

(Paulo Coelho)

Monday, August 5, 2013

Trust & Peace.

I am not going to lie, I am hurt. My heart has been broken. But I am doing fine. How can this be?! Why am I not bawling my eyes out and thinking my life is over?
This is all so interesting and has been such a growing experience.

During this break-up, I do feel sad once in a while, but it's a different kind of sadness. I feel sad because I felt mistreated and deceived. I feel sad because I do miss the times I was happy with him. But I don't feel sad about the break-up.
For some reason, I feel in peace. I feel like God has been reassuring me that this is for the best. But this is not like those times when you know it's for the best, but you still feel like crap. I actually FEEL better. Even though I might feel alone (physically, I mean) I KNOW and FEEL that I am not alone spiritually.
I have never felt this kind of love from God before. It is so amazing and overwhelming - to a point I started crying out of joy and gratefulness over His presence. I've never felt so loved, yet I felt so mistreated by the ones I love. For the first time in my life, I understand, I feel, and I accept the paths God wants me to take. I feel an indescribable trust that I will be okay. I am okay. I feel peace and joy in my heart again. Even my hormone mood swings and cramps have gone WAY down! (Crazy...)

I can't begin to explain how much I have grown spiritually and mentally. I've learned a lot about myself with all of this. I know this was in God's plan; I was supposed to mess it up, to feel distant from God, and to feel lost, and have people disappoint me... Because that way I can finally understand that only ONE will make me feel complete and will satisfy a thirst that no worldly matter can. Because God is enough!

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The Lord is compassionate and merciful, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.

~ Psalm 103:8, NLT

Come back to the place of safety, all you prisoners who still have hope! I promise this very day that I will repay two blessings for each of your troubles.

~ Zechariah 9:12, NLT

God's voice is glorious in the thunder. We can't even imagine the greatness of His power.

~ Job 37:5, NLT

Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.

~ John 14:1, NLT

Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

~ Isaiah 41:10, NLT

All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's paths to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all.

~ Isaiah 53:6, NLT

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Thank You God for always being here with me, for walking with me through every step of my life... I know you've never left me.
I am the lost sheep... But I have returned to my Shepherd.

Thank You Again Father,

Your Child.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Tim Timmons - Starts With Me

What could I do to leave a legacy?
How can I speak with authority
When I can't see you, I can't see you
How can I know the dreams you have for me?
How do I believe beyond what I have seen?
When I can't hear you, I can't feel you now
Oh, no, no, no

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees
When I am weak you're strong
You meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees
Oh, it starts with me

Why do I try to work outside of you?
Knocking down doors I should be going through
But I'm so tired, I'm so tired
You take my burdens off of my shoulders
You break the lies that hold me back
So I'm not sure enough

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees
When I am weak your strong
You meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees
Yeah, it starts with me

I really wanna change the world
I really wanna sing your song
But I know revival's got to start with me
I really wanna change the world
I really wanna sing your song
But I know revival's got to start with me

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees
When I am weak you're strong you meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees

You're my revival song, you start where I belong
On my knees, on my knees
When I am weak your strong you meet me here
When I'm on my knees, on my knees
It starts with me

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Love.

In my twenty years of life, I've learned what love is able to bear and sacrifice, I've learned what love is, and I've learned what love isn't. Three big lessons that I will always carry in my heart.
Now I have to learn to be love.

"Remember, my child, anyone can love you when the sun is shining. In the storms is where you learn who truly cares for you."

"Even after all this time, the sun never says to the Earth "you owe me". Look what happens with a love like that... it lights the whole sky."

God, please take away any resentment towards those who have hurt me. I want to be love and share love; no more holding onto things that will not shine Your light.

Never regret

Never forget

The gift from above

Unconditional love

Dead-end.

We've all been down dead-end roads... But what if those roads were acutually taking you somewhere you needed to go?

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Third Day - I need a miracle

Well, late one night, she started to cry and thought, "He ain't coming home"

She was tired of the lies, tired of the fight, but she didn't want to see him go

She fell on her knees and said, "I haven't prayed since I was young

But Lord above, I need a miracle"

Well no matter who you are and no matter what you've done

There will come a time when you can't make it on your own

And in your hour of desperation

Know you're not the only one

Prayin', "lord above, I need a miracle

I need a miracle"

Thursday, July 18, 2013

I don't understand.

I don't understand how you can smile all day and cry yourself to sleep at night. [or, in my case, feel my heart bleeding, but not being able to shed one single tear]. How pictures can never change, but the people in them do. How forever turns into a few short months. How you let go of something you once said you couldn't live without. How you know something is best for you, but it still hurts the same. How people who once wanted to spend every second with you, they now try to avoid you at all cost. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken [along with hearts]. How people can erase you from their lives just because it's easier than working things out.

The truth is... in reality, boys don't come running back to you in the middle of the night sneaking through the window. They just leave and never say a word to you again.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Little girl, get up.

He took her by the hand and said to her, "Talitha koum!"

(which means "Little girl, I say to you, get up!") Mark 5:41

Bajo la luna.

Mi querida,
Sabia decisión... Mi niña, sin duda que hubo un perdedor
Y tuvo que haber sido él.
Perdió una sonrisa que brilla cómo el sol.
Perdió una compañera con iniciativa, con proyección y con mucha experiencia y conocimiento.
As veces es dificil relacionar una persona llena de vida y ansias por vivir... con alguien vacio!
El brillo de tu mirada bajo la luna me dijo que estabas llena de muchas cosas... lo recuerdo perfectamente.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Just another breakup

There goes another one...

Just another heartbreak

Just another heartache
Another bad lie, another goodbye looking for another
Heart to break

I felt it coming

The beginning of our end

It's replaying on my mind

And I guess I just can't comprehend

It's just another break up

It's for the better

That's all it matters

All the expectations and hope
They're all gone

That's what hurts the most

I'm not sad
I'm just done

Tired of doing this on my own

Tired of having to move on

Just another broken heart

Just another fresh start