Cicatrizes.

Temos de ver todas as cicatrizes como algo belo. Combinado? Este vai ser o nosso segredo. Porque, acredite em mim, uma cicatriz não se forma num morto. Uma cicatriz significa: “Eu sobrevivi”.

Aaron Shust - My God, My Savior.

I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands One who is my Savior

I take Him at His word and deed
Christ died to save me this I read
And in my heart I find a need
For Him to be my Savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior
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My Savior loves, my Savior lives
My Savior's always there for me
My God He was, my God He is
My God He's always gonna be

Yes, living, dying let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior

That He would leave His place on High
And come for sinful men to die
You count it strange so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior's always there for me
My God He was, My God He is, My God He's always gonna be (x6)

My Savior lives, My Savior loves
My Savior lives, My Savior loves

Life.

There comes a point in your life when you realize that nothing will ever be the same, and you realize that from now on... time will be divided into two parts, before this and after this.

[2012~]

Soul.

Once you get to your soul, then every person you look is a soul. 

From Your Father.

Remain faithful.

I didn't promise it would be easy,

I promised it would be worth it.

                        -God.

There is a wall in front of me.

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

Goodbye and good night.

Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.

It was like magic.

And every tree and plant in the meadow seemed to be dancing. 

Stressed?

Jeremiah 29:11 ~ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Proverbs 29:11 ~ Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end.

Proverbs 3:5-6 ~ Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Ephesians 4:26 ~ In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry.

Matthew 6:19-21 ~ Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Hebrews 12:6 ~ Because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.

Très, très durs.

Les temps sont durs pour les rêveurs.

Smile.

Nothing is more beautiful than a [true] smile that has struggled through tears.



:)

True.

Sometimes the people who are thousands of miles away from you can make you feel better than the people who are right beside you.

Dá medo.

Porque te dá um medo filho da puta, né?
Ser feliz, medo de amar, medo de ser bom,
Tudo que faz bem pra gente, a gente tem medo.

~ Cazuza.






...Mas eu arriscarei.
E cairei.
E levantarei.

Liberte-se.

Então liberte-se, para vida se liberte

Pegue o que tiver errado e acerte

Para a vida se liberte

Maria Monte - Depois

Depois de sonhar tantos anos,
De fazer tantos planos
De um futuro pra nós
Depois de tantos desenganos,
Nós nos abandonamos como tantos casais
Quero que você seja feliz
Hei de ser feliz também

Depois de varar madrugada
Esperando por nada
De arrastar-me no chão
Em vão
Tu viraste-me as costas
Não me deu as respostas
Que eu preciso escutar
Quero que você seja melhor
Hei de ser melhor também

Nós dois
Já tivemos momentos
Mas passou nosso tempo
Não podemos negar
Foi bom
Nós fizemos histórias
Pra ficar na memória
E nos acompanhar
Quero que você viva sem mim
Eu vou conseguir também

Depois de aceitarmos os fatos
Vou trocar seus retratos pelos de um outro alguém
Meu bem
Vamos ter liberdade
Para amar à vontade
Sem trair mais ninguém
Quero que você seja feliz
Hei de ser feliz também

Triste realidade.

Tem gente que vai me perdendo,
Me deixando escapar,
Aí vou percebendo
Que nunca fiz tanta diferença...
E que a importância que eu pensava ter,
Na verdade, nunca existiu.

Let's dance.

We can't always choose the music life plays for us,

But we can choose how we dance to it.

So I say, baby,

Let's dance in the rain.

Would you dance with me when the rain falls?

The shackles of Life.

Everything has its shackles.

Tudo.

Que o vento leve o que não me faz bem...

É isso aí.

Nada nessa vida é por acaso. Absolutamente nada. Por isso, temos que nos preocupar em fazer a nossa parte, da melhor forma possível. A vida nem sempre segue a nossa vontade, mas ela é perfeita naquilo que tem que ser.

Here and now.

Here love begins to render

the prose of life into hymns

and canticles of praise.

REJOICE!

Don't dwell on the past. Your history can't be erased, but your future has yet to be written. Make the most of what's going to happen instead of worrying about what you can't change. Don't waste your time being sad, because you're wasting away moments in which you could be happy. It's taken me awhile, but I'm learning that letting go of the past is a good thing. It doesn't mean forgetting, it just means moving on. And you can't enjoy the present when you're stuck in the past. Don't cry for what might have been, don't live in the past. It was supposed to be forever? Well forever doesn't always lasts. Lift your head and dry your tears, forget about yesterday. We had the time of our life, but we must move on. Let it fade away.

I will never ever lose hope. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it’s still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That's the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it.

There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences - who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and go on.

We become attached to what's familiar, and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable, even if they are bad for us.

Consult not your fears but your hopes & your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried & failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.
- Pope John XXIII

If you’re feeling frightened about what comes next, don’t be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness. Don’t waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you’ll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart… where your hope lives. You’ll find your way again.

It's sad when you think you know someone for such a long time and then all of the sudden you have no idea who this person is that is staring right in your face.

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."
— Mother Teresa

One of the best feelings in the world is realizing you're perfectly happy without the thing you thought you needed most.

"If a guy wants to be with a girl, he will make it happen. No matter what."
- He's Just Not That Into You

 No matter what has happened - good or bad - it has all brought you here to this very moment. And in this moment, you can do whatever you choose.

Sometimes you just have to finally admit that you don't deserve any of this, and leave. Even if it's going to be the hardest thing you ever do.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think. I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned that maturity has more to do with the types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. I've learned that quantity is not as important as quality when it comes to best friends. I've learned that it isn't enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world will not stop for your grief. I've learned that background and circumstances might have influenced who you are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned that you can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved. I've learned although the word "love" can have many meanings, it loses value when overly used. I've learned that no matter how old or wise you think you are, life never stops teaching.

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel, and sometimes we just have to go with "whatever happens, happens"

You held your pride like you should have held me.

So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
-- Isaiah 41:10

Be grateful for the struggle. It is our trials that refine us, to push us toward the moments that will define us.

Don't worry if you're single. God's looking down at you thinking, "I'm saving her for someone special."

I am not going to stop because of a broken heart. I will always be soft and loving and the world will never turn me hard, so my heart will always be vulnerable to break. But I will not let a broken heart stop me from loving. And I will not let a broken heart stop me from bringing light into the world. I will make a change, and I'll pour out love even if I don't always feel it pour back in. God loves me, God never changes. And that may be the only constant, but it's enough for me. For anyone. I will trust in Him, and I will not stop because of a hurting heart.

I will rejoice. No matter what.

Almost lover.

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Muletas emocionais

A vida é feita para descobrirmos quem são aqueles que realmente vale a pena viver.
Essas pessoas são chamadas nossas muletas emocionais.

Smiles.

"My heart has never smiled so hard baby, loving you is fun."

Can a heart smile for more than one time and for different people?
...
I don't know.

Hello!

Listei mil razões para não voltar atrás.
O futuro me espera.
















Hello, Sailor!

?

Do you ever feel like starting all over again?

What are you fighting for?

I'm in a constant quest for newness,
For knowledge,
For excitement,
For happiness,
And I find bits of it in my daily life.

I also find myself calculating each possibility and alternative outcome for my life
And in the ends... I don't care where I end up, how I end
I just care who I end up
Because I know If I am truly happy,
If I feel like I don't want to go to sleep because reality is better than my dreams,
Then that's where I wanna be.

I love adventures and I seek them constatly,
I wonder what's the next place I'm going to be,
The uncertain loves me and I love the uncertain
That's what drives me
That's what I fight for
That's what I am living for.

Oct 25th, 2012... a cool autumn night

So tonight I was biking home again from the grocery store. One of my bags ripped so I had to stop to rearrange stuff. I so happened to stop right in front of a church. Well, one of the bags ripped and the other one was hanging by a thread. So, get this... I'm in front of this church, on a bike, alone, looking like I need help. So these people were just closing the church and getting ready to go. T

here were about three cars there. They all saw me. NONE of them stopped to ask if I was okay or if I needed help. They ALL drove off on their nice, big cars.
I got SO pissed off. People cling so much to religion and its rules but then they forget the essence of everything - the very thing Jesus talked the most about: don't let yourself become like the Pharisees. Just be kind and good to people and show love.
This is just a proof of what I had been thinking about lately. We need to stop worshiping religion and focus on God solely. I really do hope people stop one day to think about these issues and stop focusing on religion so much and start trying to be more Christ-like.

Undo me.

I don’t really worship these day

I don’t really stand up to praise you with songs
Or prayers or actions
or with anything
I am full of all the right moves
I am full of all the right words
I am full of all the right religion
But it is all just illusion
I am really
Lonely
Lost
Calloused
Jaded
Cynical
Too religious
Too realistic
and well really just to lazy
to worship you anymore
I have lost my first love
I have lost the joy of your presence
But most of all I have lost the fear of your glory

Father I need to see you again
Like Isaiah I want to stand in awe of your glory
To fall down at your feet
To come face to face with your
Perfection,
Radiance,
Goodness,
Holiness,
Awesomeness
I want to stand before you and see you for who you are
and me for who I am
I want to be undone

I want to know me for who I really am
I want to see the depths of my heart
And know that you are the only way
You are the only truth
You are the only life
I want to see me and understand
What it really must have taken for you to
Love me
Care for me
See me
Speak to me
Want me
Communicate with me
Die for me
Die for me
Die for me

Lord, I want to stand in that place where all I can see is your glory
And my sin
Because in that place I can’t help but worship you.
Lord let me come undone
Undo my heart
Lord, undo my heart
break down these walls that I love so much
No, wait don’t,
I’m scared I don’t know if I can handle this
don’t
But I can’t live this way anymore
I can’t stand here in this half-life
this going through the motions life
this not really alive life
Father, I need you so come in and do what you must
Cut out the tumor on my heart
Break down the walls that I love
Lord let me come undone
Undo my heart
let me worship you again

~Blake Williams

The face of love

O amor é uma tempo multifacetado,

Que vem diferentes cheiros, formas e gostos,

Quem sou eu pra dizer qual o melhor?
Talvez uma monção no meio de um deserto é o melhor tipo,
Mas para outros, um dia ensolarado em uma cidade nórdica é o que eles mais querem.

Quem sou para dizer o que é certo ou errado?

Eu só estou caminhando em meado de invernos e verões,

Tentando achar a temperatura ideal.

Ou talvez não.

Eu não preciso de um tempo definido para viver,
Chuva? Sol? Neve? Praia?
Tanto faz.

Eu estou satisfeita,
Vageando por aí,
Independentemente feliz.

Chico Buarque - Construção

Amou daquela vez como se fosse a última
Beijou sua mulher como se fosse a última
E cada filho seu como se fosse o único
E atravessou a rua com seu passo tímido
Subiu a construção como se fosse máquina
Ergueu no patamar quatro paredes sólidas
Tijolo com tijolo num desenho mágico
Seus olhos embotados de cimento e lágrima
Sentou pra descansar como se fosse sábado
Comeu feijão com arroz como se fosse um príncipe
Bebeu e soluçou como se fosse um náufrago
Dançou e gargalhou como se ouvisse música
E tropeçou no céu como se fosse um bêbado
E flutuou no ar como se fosse um pássaro
E se acabou no chão feito um pacote flácido
Agonizou no meio do passeio público
Morreu na contramão atrapalhando o tráfego

Amou daquela vez como se fosse o último
Beijou sua mulher como se fosse a única
E cada filho seu como se fosse o pródigo
E atravessou a rua com seu passo bêbado
Subiu a construção como se fosse sólido
Ergueu no patamar quatro paredes mágicas
Tijolo com tijolo num desenho lógico
Seus olhos embotados de cimento e tráfego
Sentou pra descansar como se fosse um príncipe
Comeu feijão com arroz como se fosse o máximo
Bebeu e soluçou como se fosse máquina
Dançou e gargalhou como se fosse o próximo
E tropeçou no céu como se ouvisse música
E flutuou no ar como se fosse sábado
E se acabou no chão feito um pacote tímido
Agonizou no meio do passeio náufrago
Morreu na contramão atrapalhando o público

Amou daquela vez como se fosse máquina
Beijou sua mulher como se fosse lógico
Ergueu no patamar quatro paredes flácidas
Sentou pra descansar como se fosse um pássaro
E flutuou no ar como se fosse um príncipe
E se acabou no chão feito um pacote bêbado
Morreu na contra-mão atrapalhando o sábado

Por esse pão pra comer, por esse chão prá dormir
A certidão pra nascer e a concessão pra sorrir
Por me deixar respirar, por me deixar existir,
Deus lhe pague
Pela cachaça de graça que a gente tem que engolir
Pela fumaça e a desgraça, que a gente tem que tossir
Pelos andaimes pingentes que a gente tem que cair,
Deus lhe pague
Pela mulher carpideira pra nos louvar e cuspir
E pelas moscas bicheiras a nos beijar e cobrir
E pela paz derradeira que enfim vai nos redimir,
Deus lhe pague

Wherefore?

Wandering around like a misguided ghost
Trying to find you in other people
Trying to find your hugs on other arms
Your kindness in other souls
Your love in other hearts

Uncertain what to do,
I knock on every door
Hoping you will answer it

Lost and cold
I lay here
Trying to forget what my mind keeps remembering
And forgetting what I want to remember

Faith seems to slip under my hands
I tend to overlook the good things
And cling to the bad ones that pull me down

Self-destructing being
Wherefore did this happen!

My unanswered question
Will forever be flying around
Looking,
Looking,
For you.

I miss you.

I miss the innocence of our love,
I miss the silliness of our love,
I miss the seriousness of our love,
I miss the importance of our love,
I miss the partnership we had,
I miss the friendship we had,
I miss discovering for the first time what it feels like to be in peace with my heart and soul,
I miss discovering what it feels like to have someone to hold you physically, emotionally, and spiritually,
I miss feeling how loved I could be, by the man I wanted to be loved,
I miss being silly, and laughing like if there was no tomorrow,
I miss putting off all the homework just to be with you,
I miss thinking "I could die happily right now"
I miss being by your side,
I miss knowing what you are up to,
I miss knowing your goals,
I miss knowing your fears,
I miss knowing your frustations,
I miss the good morning texts,
I miss the goodnights kisses,
I miss seeing your sleepy face in the morning,
I miss your jokes,
I miss the best hug,
I miss the best kiss,
I miss the best smile,
I miss the best eyes,
I miss the best friend,
I miss the best person that has ever entered my life,
I miss you, dearly.



With love,
C.

The Battle.

We don't have the answer for everything in life.

In fact, hell, we might not have any answer to anything in life.

But this is me, attempting to answer them.

I am just an ordinary person, trying to make it in life.

Trying to survive, day by day, trying to not eff this up so bad.

We are afraid to fight and lose

But we are still fighting a battle against our own demons.

Yes, we create our own demons and our own enemies.

So, in the end, it's just me against myself.

Meu coração está oco.

O tempo vazio.
O espaço vazio.
O coração vazio.

Um oco que não tem fim.

A solidão sem fronteiras.

Um silêncio surdo-mudo
é testemunha do nada

(Valter da Rosa Borges)


Qual o propósito dessa vida?
Tudo parece tão obscuro
Os túneis são sem fim,
Minha apatia predomina meus dias,
Estou cansada, exausta,
Disfarço com um sorriso minha solidão
Estou perdendo a batalha contra a vida,
Meus soldados estão derrubados e não tenho mais estratégias
Por favor, alguém está aí?
Porque você não me escuta?
Perdi tudo, meu amanhecer foi-se, meu luar não apareceu...
E eu pensando que tudo podia mudar e melhorar,
Ah! Que tolice...

O Outro Rumo...

"Eu não consigo deixar de pensar o que seria das nossas vida se... O que seria das nossas vidas se. Eu sei que tudo aconteceu como tinha que acontecer, mas quando eu lembro de você sentada naquela cadeira chorando, eu me pergunto se, no fundo, minha imaturidade falou mais alto.

Eu não sou mais aquele menino. Eu não tinha idade ou experiência pra entender o que acontecia... e talvez eu projete tudo isso, tantos e tantos anos depois, porque as noites andam vazias e sem lua, e eu me pergunte o que acontece com você do outro lado do país. Eu roubei as flores da floresta e te dei.. Você fez uma pizza escrito "I love you" pra mim. Me deu de presente meus melhores dias. Você cuidava de mim. A gente corria, viajava, ria, jantava. Juntos. Éramos dois em um.

Você era como se fosse família - meu pai era seu pai, minha mãe sua mãe, e meus irmãos, seus irmãos.

Dez anos depois, a lembrança disso tudo ainda é bem esquisita. Não existe mais história, não existe mais amor, não existe mais aquele você e aquele eu lá de trás. A gente cresceu, o tempo passou e... e.  Você provavelmente pensa que eu não me importasse. 

Você gritou dentro do seu coração para que eu voltasse. E o mundo girou, egirou. Mas eu ainda me lembro daquela manhã de sexta-feira em um mês de janeiro frio. Eu ainda me lembro dos seus olhos castanhos... eu ainda me lembro da possibilidade. Eu ainda me lembro do instante em que tudo parecia possível. Em que toda a felicidade parecia possível. E de como nós éramos lindos. E de como eu fui incrivelmente feliz... ali."

Sei que um dia você irá pensar desse jeito.

Prayer.

I have come to realize that it's no longer important how my life turns out to be.
My main concern is how I can live to be a living proof of God's words. Wherever He sends me, I'm content. I am content however the Lord plans my life. I'm willing to take any turbulence and storms life throws at me. I do not and will not expect anything from life besides being content with God's willing and being able to share His love that so touches me daily.
Some may see this as a pessimistic idea. But I tell you, this is one of the most positive. It's one that holds the idea that there is something much greater and better awaiting for us in heaven; that this life is only temporary and what is good is yet to come.

Lord, I take your offer; I will rejoice fully in you and in you only. For you are more than enough, Lord. I thank you for your constant presence in my life. I ask you for strength and wisdom to carry on these thoughts.
You are all I need. You are my rock and my foundation.
I cannot do this without you, Lord. Please, don't let me wander away from You.

Amen.

Lar, doce lar.

Há muitos tempo venho perambulando por aí tentando achar o meu verdadeiro eu e o meu verdadeiro lugar.
Há muito tempo vejo muitas tempestade de trovão em meio a alguns raios de luz esporádicos.
Nas chuvas, tempestades, ventanias e alagamentos eu me pergunto aonde estar o meu próprio lar.
Aonde eu pertenço? Meus olhos não param... eu procuro e procuro e só acho mais tempestades.
Eu sei que esse lugar existe. O difícil é saber se já cheguei lá ou não.
Eu sou que nem aquela criança quando viaja com os pais e pergunta de cinco em cinco minutos se já chegamos. Impaciência predomina. Angústia alaga minha alma. Eu sei que a viagem valerá a pena, mas quanto tempo mais, Senhor?

Parece que toda vez que eu penso que tudo está perdido, eu me perco mais ainda.
Parece que toda vez que eu penso que me achei, eu me equivoco e mal consigo me reconhecer no reflexo do espelho.

Eu devo estar fazendo tudo errado mesmo.

Preciso mudar de direção.
E já.
Só não sei por onde começar, aonde começar, e para onde ir.

Encontro-me em um labirinto infinito.
Sem ninguém ao meu redor,
Sem sol,
Sem mar,
Sem pássaros,

Apenas eu e a chuva.

LaCrae - Background

I could play the background
I could play the background
Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead


It's evident you run the show, so let me back down
You take the leading role, and I'll play the background
I know I miss my cues, know I forget my lines
I'm sticking to your script, and I'm reading all your signs
I don't need my name in lights, I don't need a starring role
Why gain the whole wide world, If I'm just going lose my soul
And my ways ain't pure if I don't live according to Your Word
I can't endure this life without Your wisdom being heard
So word, to every dancer for a pop star
'Cause we all play the background, but mine's a rockstar
Yeah, so if you need me I'll be stage right
Praying the whole world will start embracing stage fright
So let me fall back, stop giving my suggestions
'Cause when I follow my obsessions, I end up confessing
That I'm not that impressive, matter of fact
I'm who I are, a trail of stardust leading to the superstar


I could play the background
I could play the background
Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead

I had a dream that I was captain of my soul
I was master of my fate, lost control, and then I sank
So I don't want to take the lead, 'cause I'm prone to make mistakes
All these folks who follow me, gon' end up in the wrong place
So let me just shadow you, let me trace your lines
Matter of fact, just take my pen, here, you create my rhymes
'Cause if I do this by myself, I'm scared that I'll succeed
And no longer trust in you, 'cause I only trust in me
And see, that's how you end up headed to destruction
Paving a road to nowhere, pour your life out for nothing
You pulled my card, I'm bluffing, You know what's in my hand
Me, I just roll and trust you, You cause the dice to land
I'm in control of nothing, follow you at any cost
Some call it sovereign will, all I know is you the boss
Man, I'm so at ease, I'm so content
I'll play the background, like it's an instrument


I could play the background
I could play the background
Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead


I know I'm safest when I'm in Your will, and trust Your Word
I know I'm dangerous when I trust myself, my vision blurred
And I ain't got no time to play life's foolish games
Got plenty aims, but do they really Glorify Your name
And it's a shame, the way I want to do these things for You, yeah
Don't even cling to you, take time to sit and glean from You
It seems You were patient in my ignorance
If ignorance is bliss, it's 'cause she never heard of this


I could play the background
I could play the background
Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead


I could play the background
I could play the background
Cause I know sometimes I get in the way
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
So won't You take the lead, lead, lead?
And I could play the background, background
And you could take the lead.

I love this song. This is LaCrae, a Christian rapper and this song speaks to me so much... We often do what we think it's right for us and not what God wants for us. I'm learning to take a step back, let go of my personal desires and embrance the trials and struggles that are going to make me grow spiritually. God is good and so are his plans for us. So all we really need to do is fall back and let Him take the lead.

God, I pray that one day I will learn to submit completely to You. I know your plans are great, but I struggle so much with this. I need You to take the lead of my life because I just can't do it without you. I pray that one day You will show me your grandiosity and I will be content with You only. I know I don't need anybody but You, so please put this in my heart, God. I know You are my rescue boat. You and only You. So please, put this in my heart. I need to learn to let go of what my mind wants and focus only ON YOU.

Amen.

Memórias.

Lembrar de momentos especiais da nossa vida é como uma viagem ao tunel do tempo. Uma viagem que nos leva de volta aquele momento inesquecível e único que foi petrificado na nossa memória. Na nossa vida inteira, nós passamos por inúmeros momentos aos quais nunca esqueceremos.

Só basta fechar os olhos e reviver tudo de novo. Sentir tudo que seus cinco sentidos sentiram pela primeira vez: o cheiro, o gosto, a cor, o som, a textura. Sentir seu coração bater do mesmo jeito. Ver o mundo com os olhos que víamos antes. Tudo se torna tão inocente e puro. O passado tem o poder de nos contar o que nós aprendemos e reviver tudo aquilo de novo.

Mas nem tudo são flores. Memórias nos trazem dor e tristeza. Dor de saber que tudo aquilo que você estava sentindo naquela hora: o coração batendo, as suas expectativas para o futuro, o cheiro do ambiente ao seu redor, olhares se cruzando... tudo aquilo se foi. Para sempre.

Saber que tudo aquilo que um dia foi o motivo de você acordar e de lhe fazer a pessoa mais feliz do mundo agora não está mais alí com você.

O que nós fazemos com memórias que só nos traz lágrimas?

O que fazer com aquilo que foi tirado de ti tão rapidamente e sem aviso?

Eu me encontro tão perdida neste mar de memórias e lágrimas. Tudo se volta, no final do dia, aquelas memórias ao qual eu só quero esquecer.

Andar pelas mesmas ruas que andei à algum tempo atrás e lembrar o quão inocente e o quanto eu esperava da vida... é tão... tão... decepcionante. É uma decepção saber que tudo aquilo que eu tinha agora se foi.

Eu me encontro em um mar de falsas esperanças e eu estou me afogando mais e mais... Estou esperando um barco salva-vidas há algum tempo...

Shawn McDonald - Closer

"Closer"

Looking for a color
In a shade of gray,
Looking for love
In a drop of rain.
Trying to change from
The old mundane.
Everything i do just
Feels the same.
Spending my life
Out of the desert.
Been gone so long
Feels like forever.

I just want to be
Even closer to you.
I just want to
Be even closer.
I am yours.
You can have all of me,
Anything, everything.
I just want to
Be even closer.

A day without you
Is a thousand years.
A day without you
Is a million tears.
Tell me why do
I run in fear?
Why do i run when
You are so near?
Spending my life
In the weather.
Been gone so long and
I need some shelter.

I just want to be
Even closer to you.
I just want to
Be even closer.
I am yours.
You can have all of me,
Anything, everything.
I just want to
Be even closer.

Wherever you go,
Wherever you are,
I just want to be
There with you.


I just want to be
Even closer to you.
I just want to
Be even closer.
I am yours.
You can have all of me,
Anything, everything.
I just want to
Be even closer.

Looking for a color
In a shade of gray,
Looking for love
In a drop of rain.

Daily prayer

He leads the humble in doing right, teaching them his way. ~ Ephesians 2:8, NLT

I pray that God will give me understanding in this situation I encounter myself. I pray that God will make me trust completely in Him so my mind and heart is free of worries and dedicated to Him only. I pray that this heaviness in my heart goes away and I can finally breathe again. I pray that God will give me peace of heart.
I PRAY and BELIEVE that God will teach me His word so I can think and act in a Godly way, seeking out spiritual growth, not personal achievement.

Amen.

É isso aí.

"Saber esperar é uma virtude! Aceitar, sem questionar, que cada coisa tem um tempo certo para acontecer... É ter Fé!"


"Deus não trabalha na ansiedade do homem. As coisas acontecem na hora certa!"
 
 
Amém.

Laura Story - Blessings

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise


-

This song says it all.
<3

VERY TRUE.

"The ones who love us, never truly leave us." - Sirius Black

Trying...

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again - my Savior and my God!



~ Psalm 42:11, NLT

How He Loves Us - David Crowder

And He is jealous from me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me
And oh, how He loves us, oh Oh, how He loves us, how He loves us all

And He is jealous from me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me
Oh, how He loves, yeah, He loves us Oh, how He loves us, oh, how He loves us Oh, how He loves And we are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest I don't have time to maintain these regrets When I think about the way

Oh, how He loves us, oh Oh, how He loves us, how He loves all How He loves us all...

<3

Nobody said it was easy

"Entender a vontade de Deus nem sempre é fácil. Mas crer que Ele está no comando e tem um plano para a nossa vida faz a caminhada valer a pena"

True story.

"Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt you"