This is all so interesting and has been such a growing experience.
During this break-up, I do feel sad once in a while, but it's a different kind of sadness. I feel sad because I felt mistreated and deceived. I feel sad because I do miss the times I was happy with him. But I don't feel sad about the break-up.
For some reason, I feel in peace. I feel like God has been reassuring me that this is for the best. But this is not like those times when you know it's for the best, but you still feel like crap. I actually FEEL better. Even though I might feel alone (physically, I mean) I KNOW and FEEL that I am not alone spiritually.
I have never felt this kind of love from God before. It is so amazing and overwhelming - to a point I started crying out of joy and gratefulness over His presence. I've never felt so loved, yet I felt so mistreated by the ones I love. For the first time in my life, I understand, I feel, and I accept the paths God wants me to take. I feel an indescribable trust that I will be okay. I am okay. I feel peace and joy in my heart again. Even my hormone mood swings and cramps have gone WAY down! (Crazy...)
I can't begin to explain how much I have grown spiritually and mentally. I've learned a lot about myself with all of this. I know this was in God's plan; I was supposed to mess it up, to feel distant from God, and to feel lost, and have people disappoint me... Because that way I can finally understand that only ONE will make me feel complete and will satisfy a thirst that no worldly matter can. Because God is enough!
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The Lord is compassionate and merciful, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.
~ Psalm 103:8, NLT
Come back to the place of safety, all you prisoners who still have hope! I promise this very day that I will repay two blessings for each of your troubles.
~ Zechariah 9:12, NLT
God's voice is glorious in the thunder. We can't even imagine the greatness of His power.
~ Job 37:5, NLT
Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.
~ John 14:1, NLT
Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
~ Isaiah 41:10, NLT
All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's paths to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all.
~ Isaiah 53:6, NLT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Thank You God for always being here with me, for walking with me through every step of my life... I know you've never left me.
I am the lost sheep... But I have returned to my Shepherd.
Thank You Again Father,
Your Child.
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