Hillsong United - Oceans (Where feet may fail)

You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown where feet may fail

And there I find You in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand

Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name

Keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in Your embrace

I am Yours and You are mine

I've heard this song awhile back at church, and I just love it so much. Every time it plays on the radio, I feel comforted and in peace. Faith has been an interest topic to me for awhile now. Stepping into the unknown and trusting that God is leading me in the right way is such a difficult thing to grasp. What if I am leading myself into the wrong path? What if I am making a mistake? Faith has no bridges, you either trust or you don't. You either commit or you don't. You either do it and jump, or you don't, and you fall.  

This is one of those amazing prayer songs that at the end you must ask yourself, "Do I really want God to do what I just asked? Take me out of my comfort zone? Help me understand how to trust completely when tragedy or uncertainty strikes?" Kind of scary. Takes a beautiful voice to sing it, but it takes a tremendously strong faith to mean it. I had no problem leaving my home and family at age 17 to a completely unknown city and strangers, but that's because that was my desire, I thought it'd be beneficial, and I was called to do it since a young age. But what about those times when we feel like it's not going to be better or easier, but we still feel called to do it? What about those times when we're struggling, and we don't see the light in the end of the tunnel? What about those times when we don't really know what's the right path to take? What do you do? Where do you turn? 

I'd like to believe that my faith is always going to be louder than my fears, stronger than my own desires. I'd like to think I can discern right from wrong, and if I do end up choosing the wrong path, I will learn from it, and God will help me through it. I would like to think that I don't need to fit into "the good christian" model to have faith. I don't have to be perfect in anybody's eyes, because I am not. I would like to think that my faith is based on the fact that I am small, and I need Him, who is strong and constant.